When I first found out I was pregnant, I was thrilled…. but didn't feel pregnant. Only sick, sore, and tired. Ok, so I felt a little bit pregnant.
As I'm progressing into the 2nd trimester (we're approaching 18 weeks in a couple days!) I'm beginning to feel more pregnant, which is a relief. Yes, really, it's a relief! It makes it seem more real.
I still don't feel 100% pregnant yet. And, I have a feeling that although I wish for that now… I'll regret that soon enough.
So what is making me feel pregnant now?
Backaches, butt aches, hip aches, I-don't-know-where-or-what-that-is-aches, headaches, mood swings, crying jags (I cried while watching CSI recently. Seriously.), increased hunger, the need to use the bathroom everywhere we go, waking up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, frequent doctor appointments (I don't think I've visited a doctor this much in the last 3 years), being told I'm looking more pregnant (really, that was a good thing to hear!), compliments on my “glow,” and omg oily nose. I feel like I'm in high school again with the breakouts.
And that's just the short list.
So what's holding me back from feeling 100% pregnant?
The percentage has increased now that I'm starting to show a little bit. I'm a bigger girl, so I figured it would either take longer for me to start showing or I'd just get ginormous immediately. People who know me or know I'm pregnant can identify the starting of the preggo belly…. to everyone else… I just look fatter than normal.
I'm also starting to feel more pregnant now that I've started to feel the baby move. For me, I feel repeated pushes, pokes, and/or bumps in my lower abdomen. This should totally make me feel pregnant, I know! However, I've been so cautious to believe I'm actually feeling the baby move since I know how much I've been waiting and wanting to feel movement. Plus, until someone else (like my darling husband) can put their hand on my tummy and feel something it's a fairly lone experience. I tried very hard to describe it to Brian when I first felt movement and perked up all “ooh! I think… I think I just felt the baby move…” but it's one of those things that no matter how detailed my description is, it's my experience – mine and mine alone – at least for now.
What about you? When did you begin to really feel pregnant? Was it the first ultrasound? The first sound of the heartbeat? The first movement? Or was it when you were being rushed to the hospital by a frantic partner as you cry out between contractions?
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